I haven’t gotten over you yet. It sucks because we never even talked romantically before either. I still don’t know why I’m so head over heels for you. You’ve talked to me a lot now recently. I remember the first time you said hi to me in a really long time. I was really caught off guard, too. All my friends were hanging out in the teachers parking lot having a little car meet while the girls soccer team was playing. I was hanging outside a car window with my friend, jamming out to music with the others. Volleyball practice ended and everyone came out of the gym and said hi to everyone. You walked passed everyone and said hi as well. When you came back over to the group, you waved to me and said hi Ashley. Of course I waved back and said hey. My eyes brightened up so much and my smile got really big. I was so surprised that you even acknowledged my presence because you never did in the past before. That’s when I knew my feelings for you never left.
I really tried to suppress my feelings for you. Ever since you told me your real feelings last year, I was so heart broken. You broke my heart without even getting into a relationship with me. That’s how you know I was really falling for you. I just had to accept the fact that you had no interest in me whatsoever. All summer long, you were on my mind 24/7. I got back with my ex in the beginning of the school year and I really thought that that’s what I wanted when in reality, all i wanted was is you. The new year started and I got into another relationship. I got caught up in something small, but it made me think. My phone password was still your name after all these months of trying to get over you. Why would I keep your name as my password? I told people that it didn’t mean anything to me anymore and it was just an easy password to memorize since it’s been so long. It wasn’t just numbers though. You still meant something to me even if I meant nothing to you.
Now, summer 2018 is coming and you’re leaving for college soon. You’ll always be on my mind now. All I was now is you. After all the boys I talked to, you somehow always come back to me. Somehow I’m still stuck on you and I wish I wasn’t.